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i really wish i was independent like i was a few years back, no need to rely on friends, family or anyone.
it's easier to rely on myself, i know my limits and in that i know my outcomes. The moment i rely on other people it adds more factors into my life. more trouble. more unseen paths.
i'm not saying i dont appreciate the help people give me , i'm just saying i need to become independent again and only rely on people as a last resort.

all i want to do now is sleep and forget. but i cant so i spend more time during the day sleeping and stay away during the night still trying to sort out my feelings and how i'm going to fake my way through the next day. fake that im okay and im over it. fake that it's really me that you see.

in life it's easier to fake you way thru it then to go against the current i guess.