Save some face, you know you've only got one

Some times in life, no matter what you do , how good you are, how you go on doing your shit, life will just fuck with you for the fun of it.

Shirley and I broke up. FULLSTOP i don't want to fucking talk about it.

For all those asking , " how are you?" I'm fucking FINE! I'm fucked up, insecure, neurotic and emotional.

I'm pissed off with the fact that you didn't even say sorry
that you didn't even give me an explaination
that you left me with a massive mess that i had to clean up all by my fucking self
that you'll go on life like as if nothing fucking happened and expect me to do the same
that you think you know how i feel, FACE THE FACTS YOU DONT
that you said yes when you didn't mean it
that you lied when you could've just said the truth
that you knew what had happened to me and yet you still did the same thing
that i'm the one that tried and pushed on even when people said it wouldnt work
that i'm the one taking shit for what went down
that once again no one will know the whole story and i'll take the blame because its me
that you gave me hope

Fuck it , you know , in the end i'm the one that cleans up the mess, not you. I'm the one that has to walk thru the group of people staring and saying shit behind my back because they think i dont know i can hear them.

The faster people stop talking about it , the faster any connection to you for me will die with it and when it's gone don't expect me to treat you the same way, whether we were in the relationship or not.

It's funny i actually thought you could've helped me out of everyone ... guess i was fucking wrong. Because to me you were the fucking magic that hid away my own problems. But now you're fucking gone , i've returned to my fucked up reality. I go home to fucking abuse and non stop screaming , i go to school to face people who think im some agro physcopath, i walk the streets where people look down on me until i prove them wrong. So when you've dealt with that for the last 12 years of your life , maybe you'll fucking understand why you were so fucking important to me.

and for fuck sake girls, dont like a guy ? DONT FUCKING SAY YES AND HOPE IT WILL TURN OUT RIGHT! IT WILL NEVER FUCKING WILL.
If theres ever one thing a girl should never do to a guy, its fuck with his emotions, just cause we're guys doesnt mean we dont have them. You fuck with them and its either a complete vendetta against you or its end of whatever relationship you will ever have with them. Because once something's broken it can never be made whole, there are always the chips and cracks left behind.

SO WHEN YOUR FUCKING READY TO EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT THE FUCK EXACTLY HAPPENED BETWEEN US FORGET ANY THOUGHTS OF US EVER BEING FUCKING FRIENDS OR ANYTHING BECAUSE UNTIL THEN YOU DONT EXIST TO ME.