Just when i thought i got my bearings...

I write to my blog at the late hour or early morning ,whichever one you find more appropiate, about my very wierd life...( most of this is senseless rambling so if you cant be bothered reading useless info stop now and go do soemthing else)

The past term and a half ( give or take 15 weeks ) for me has been somewhat of an emotional rollercoaster for me... I went crazy over a girl, something i thought that could never happen to me... , i pursued happiness , found it , had it bitch slap me in the face and walk out on me... then i attempted to find it again and now i am in state of utter confusion.

During the last few weeks , i've been filling myself up with an artificial happiness, a materialistic happiness...( yes i know i said i wasn't a materialistic type of guy a few post back but meh who knew eh?). I've stuffed myself with camping goods, gym equipment and a new bed in order to make me feel better about the situations. But this happiness can only go so far... until you notice that no matter how much stuff you buy , there will always be an empty space in you. A space you can't fill with things , but rather ... someone? ( don't think dirty alrights?)

Well during the one and a half term i've also been trying to do that... blindly too...
The hardest thing in life you can ever do i would say is read another person's heart. Emotions are easy, you look at their stance, facial expressions , movement and most importantly their tone of voice... and from their emotions you can always deduce their actions or future actions whichever is appropiate in the situations... How do i know this you ask? It's called agro asian parents and alot of TV. Whether or not mentioned before but i grew up in a "hostile" environment, i remember as a kid the one thing i was most afraid of were my parents, i noticed that their moods would be a factor in their results when i asked them for something or to do something ... so at a young age i learned how to read emotions and hence actions. Using logic you can always work out the reaction of another persons action i guess, while there may be many reactions that are possible , one of them is bound to be right...

Lately i've set myself a goal and pursued it with great persistance... until tonight...
Ages ago i said to myself, when shit happens after 12am its bad ... no matter what... and all i should do is ignore it and go to sleep... Which right now leads think why am i still up typing this but hell i know i can't sleep even if i wanted to... I recieved a call just as i finished watching the new movie dad had rented ( The Dark Knight) and it's caller ID was under blocked, meaning its a private number so the rules out 90% of the people i know ... and because its midnight , it must be urgent... so that rules out another 5 % which narrows it down to 2 people ... both of which i won't name for the time being.

Right now i cant go into any detail about the call as i was asked not to reveal anything for now so i'll respect those wishes and say nothing except ... i really didn't expect it

So once again i'm tossed into the darkness of confusion and gotta climb my way out like always T_________________T

i like kites =D

Well that was quite a week for me
Monday went tutoring , didn't do anything cause we were about to start a new topic and tuan didnt want to start a new topic cause we would end up forgeting it over the holidays so we revised and ate pizza. It was a fun "lesson".
Tuesday, Shirley and I went to Parramatta then to Livopool. Oddly enough we spent more time on the trains and wait for them then actually in Westfields. We went para, went myers tried to look for a Paul Frank's pencil case for Hanny's and I Kris Kringle thingy. We ended up callign the Kris Kringle cause she couldn't find ema present and i wasn't sure if the pencil case if me and shirley found was the right one.. Later on we went to livo and i ate kfc x. We walked around livo's westfield for a while then we walked back to the station and we hugged then she took the bus home and i went home by train. i dunno why but that day was fun for me ... =D
On Thursday i got back my 3 unit and i did suprisingly good. I even did better then my 2unit result. Probably the first time i ever got so close to jack's mark xD and i beat chris too ^^
Friday stayed at home and did the last second packing and took a train to the campsite. man the trains going down south are so far apart and take ages to get anywhere T____T. We got to the campsite and laid around while vio kicked his soccer ball around and occasionally at us T___T.The other parents started arriving within a few hours, and started setting up the base in which we would be living over the weekend. Turned out the parents had put together a dining fly ready to put up... a proper dining fly too ^^'. Use vent took our time to build our excessively big tent which could easily fit 10 people even though we had 6 people acutally sleeping in it... make it 4 cause Vio and his brother ended up sleeping outside on a borrowed stretcher cause he wanted to feel a bit extreme... lol? If anyone was to ever see an asian invasion ro infestation you wouldn't have to look far, at around 4 there were 3 asian kid and 2 aussie kids on the campsite and by time night had fallen on us the whole campsite was infested with asian . Us vents went out and bought pizza for dinner as we had located a hot food shop up the road earlier.
Saturday woke up early , chucked on my "...meh" shirt, walked down to the beach and help set up the volley ball nets and the court on the sand whiel the little kids ran around on the beach generally wasting their energy. We spent the next 2 hours playing volley ball on the sand against various teams of parents. Winning all our games 3 sets to 0. Volleyball on the beach with little kids and parents cheering at you? Badass =) Afterwards the kites came out and we attempted to fly kites. Because the kites where stunt kites the were a bit hard to get a hang on on the first try but eventually we got used to them. It was funny as we would try to make the kites sweep down and attack anyone within its reaches ... all of course failed as the kites usually crashed into the group from sweeping too low or not enough pull to bring it back up. We played around with the kites for awhile then retired and sat around till we couldnt be bothered any more. We all ended up sleeping for a few hours before some more parents came up and we were called out to help out with the scouts initiation cermony. We blindfolded them and walked them straight into the water at the beach. And just to make it more fun , we made it so when ever we called out jump they had to jump or when ever we called out bend they had to bend over and reach for the sand. It was funny as we had blindfolded scouts jumping for no reason and bending over jst as a wave came in and crashed on them. We then had dinner and went for a walk and chatted over some serious but funny issues in our lives. Did this till midnight , and sat on one of the parents hammocks and played with my iphone for a while , eventually i got bored and called up shirely , talked to her for around 20 minutes before i had to hang up as two randoms raided our site lookign for campsite. After that we had to send the scouts and everyone else to sleep.
Sunday... Woke up at 6 to invest one of the scouts , its funny the site of a bunch of vents obviously half asleep standing on the beach waitign to be released so we could get some sleep... I dont really remember what else happened on sunday except that we packed up camp and then played a game of soccer , parents versed kids. Me, dav, jess and a few other scouts sat out and watched the game till it ended and we all went home. It wasa good camp ^^'
Because vio lost his camera somewhere along the camp, we got no good picture except for the random pictures jess took on my phone and on dinh's camera but i cant be bothered getting it so yeah ....

oh thats sneaky...

I've always known my parents to be sneaky and some what cunning around me , mostly because i usually undermine, exploit, backdoor all their rules and do things my way. But today it was a new sneaky!

since the Government have decided to give every child one thousand dollar each this christmas in order to help our dreadful economy , i thought i would miss out as on paper my family is "rich".
By 'on paper' i mean we own 3 houses on paper but in reality 1.5 of the houses are still under mortgages and we're still paying them off obviously.

This is also the unfortunate reason to why i DONT get youth allowance... but meh what can i do eh? I don't spend much anyways; dont buy expensive clothings, dont want an ipod or some shit every time a new one comes out. I'm not really a materialistic type of guy... unless it comes to bad ass camping gear then thats a different thing.

Anyways today they took me otu shopping, i went Paul's warehouse to buy a chin up bar so i can strenghten my upper body strengh so next time we go rock climbing im going to kick ass and do that backward slopping rock thingy ! I saw a billabong bag on sale so i asked if i could buy it , my parents said yes and then i started getting sus... BIG TIME.

My parents are the typical tight-ass asians ( no disrespect intended , you know its true) so when they agreed to getting me the bag after buyign the chin up bar thing , i knew something was up but i just held my tongue...

Then we went off to buy me a new bed, I've had my little single bed for a good 10 years or so, and i've started to grow out of it at the start of this year but i held on a bit. Ideally i would want a double tempura bed but lord knows i would never get one so i'll jst settle for a cheap double bed instead. In the end it cost us 980 including the stand and the matress and is going to be delievered to us on thrusday. So... from now on ! NO MORE FALLING OUT OF MY BED OR HAVING MY FEET STICK OUT IN THE ENDS! YESSS!

On our trip home , mom confessed that the only reason why she took us shopping was cause we btoh had the 1K the gov had given us. SEE I KNEW IT ! SUS! SNEAKKY !
oh and shopping for beds suck ! takes ages and the negotiating is like worse then the negotiation between a terrorist holding a group of hostages and the local federal authorities T____T

Ironically the next night i won't be sleeping in the bed , rather sleeping on the hard/soft/no idea sands and grass of Coledale beach as i'm going camping for the week end. So yeah wont be using that bed to Sunday LOL.

and did you know i wear size 14 bordies ?! i never knew till today , when hanny asked me what size incase she couldnt get me the special prezzie for Secret Santa. except because its between the both of us it's not really Secret Santa , its more like Santa? I think our limit is 20 dollars or something... I'm getting her a paul frank pencil case cause she wants one so itsa win win =D

Sickkkk

I hate being sick T-T
My nose is blocked
I got a massive headache
I'm occasionally coughing up random blood and form

And on top of this I can't look at a screen for more then 30 minutes without feeling like ongoing to drop dead in the next minute

I hate it how when I do get sick I'm competely out of it and can't do shot but to tough it out

Damn it I don't even have any medicine to take!

Gahh hope I get better by next Friday or else I'm in for a rough weekend

BEACH CAMPPPPPP

Oh by the way I won the auction for the metal one- door locker. If you've got no idea what I'm talking about, well.... Think american high school lockers, those types.
Finally a place to hide my stuff without my parents or little broter being able to look thru it ... Well that is unless they hack saw the lock but I'll doubt that will happen.



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Give way fuckwit

Today i told off my principal, Ms Coombes or some shit. These were the exact words that came out of my mouth "Fuck off ! right of way you fuck wit!".
seriously no joke. And the look on her face....? *whispers* priceless
This happen this morning after my morning swim and i was crossing the crossing between the youth centre and the fish and chips shop. I waited then i crossed and the dumb bitch still honked so i turned around and stood infornt of her car and swore at her. Fuck her, dumb fuck doesnt give a fuck about the road laws T-T
Watch if i get called up for this i'll tear her office to bits and set fire to it or someshit
=DD


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Really should be studying

I like to procastinate alot T-T

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running...

im running from reality...
in my own little world i still run away...
so where do i stop running?
when do i stop running..?

when i escape it all
when i can think without that buzz in my head
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