suppress your feelings and let them arise another day...

i always knew this would come but its harder to know how i would feel...
Maybe its because of my bad experiences with girls that i feel this way ?
or maybe its just because im worried for her ...
but there is nothing i can do , for i should be happy as long as she is happy ...
so where does that put me?
its hard for me to just "suppress" these feelings , especially because its about her.... and what we've been through
she says i will always hold a special place in her heart but i know this isn't true , it never is.
It won't take long before she forgets who i am , what i am and was to her...
To make it worse my exams are around the corner, i spent all night arguing with myself whether i should at least warn her about her own actions because we all know that love does crazy things to the brain don't we?
i decided to warn her , because if it is because of my inaction that she gets herself in a situation in which the only solution is to turn back time , i could never forgive myself. Because I'm her god brother, a position of which i take upon seriously, whether it is my action that would ensure her safety and happiness or my inactions.... i must put her happiness above mine...
TBC...